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August 26th, 2009

What oft-repeated quote or common cliché do you find the most annoying when someone says it to you?


As a matter of fact... or For the simple fact... or the fact of the matter is...


It's filler, and I hate it.

Be concise. Don't pad your sentences with the verbal equivalant of unflavoured gelatin. Just say it and be done.

August 19th, 2009

I'm on Youtube!

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Jason just uploaded the 'Song of the King' from Joseph, back in March. I'm about 50 lbs lighter now, but it was my first solo! (even though I didn't get a microphone)... :)

Clicky!

HERE!

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So a friend of mine tried to off herself.

I know this, because I read her LJ entry the next morning.
I thought I might be too late.
I set things in motion to get her help. I called on friends who knew someone with a key.

She was taken to the hospital. Last I heard, she was stable, but hadn't regained consciousness.

I know I did the right thing.

She talked in her post about how she was a failure, how she failed at life.

The irony of the situation, and I've considered the poor taste of even bringing this up, is that she even failed at trying to end the life that she believed was a failure and a waste.

I know I did the right thing.

You can't write your own ending. That's not the way of things. You don't
get to decide when it's time to punch your ticket.
It's just not proper. Not the way you play the game.
It's like leaving the theatre in the middle of the film. Even if the film's been shitty up to then, you've paid your money, you should sit there and finish it out. You never know what's going to happen, and you never will if you leave early.

I know I did the right thing.

But what if she's succeeded? Would that have given her life meaning? Certainly not to her... she'd just be dead. I can't see how that would make a difference.

Sorry, my friend. This is yet one more failure you have to admit to. But I don't consider it in the LOSE column. Being alive, no matter how shitty your world is, is a perpetual WIN. It always trumps the alternative.

I know I did the right thing.

My head is heavy now.

August 17th, 2009

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40 percent of Twitter messages 'pointless babble': study finds

In other breaking news: sky is blue, grass is green.

August 6th, 2009

What does this Rorschach blot look like to you?

A headshot of Wile E. Coyote, slightly angered, wearing a curious pair of spectacles at the end of his nose.

How's your day?

July 20th, 2009

Move along...

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This is a link to my Grandmother's obituary.

It suits her. Just happened to come across it in a search.

I still miss her. I thought I'd at least have a few more years with her in my life. I was blessed to have so many in the first place, though. I shouldn't have taken them for granted.

She never knew I had a solo in the 80's show. Not that she would've cared all that much. Still, I wish she'd known. It's just these stupid things you think about at 2:30 in the morning, when you should be asleep.

She was my last Grandparent. She was also my favorite. (It's a terrible thing to say, but it's true) I loved her so much, and thought the world of her. Here it is, two months later, and I still can't quite get over that she's gone.


This summer hasn't been anything like I expected. Granma having her stroke, then passing a few weeks later. Cathryn flying up, then travelling down for the funeral. The Pride parade, then the show. Then vacation. Then the 4th of July. Now it's almost the end of summer. Cathryn goes back in a few short weeks... and I'll not be Dad anymore. It gets harder to say goodbye every year. This year more than most, I want her to stay.

She's my baby, and my best friend, all rolled into one.

July 15th, 2009

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Anyone for seeing Half Blood Prince on Friday?

It would have to be late-ish. I get out of work at 8:30.

July 14th, 2009

Ketchup

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I suppose it's been a bit since I posted.

This summer has whizzed by.

After the show, we went on vacation the following week. We drove to Cincinnati and went to the Newport Aquarium, which was a lot of fun. Then we travelled to the IKEA store and spent three hours there wandering about, checking out all the WAY COOL things, and having lunch at the cafe.
Tuesday we went to the zoo and renewed our memberships for two years, and got memberships for Greg and Meagan as well. They're wonderful friends.
Wednesday was our canoe trip down Big Darby creek. It was a nice, cool day with overcast skies. We had a great time.
Thursday I finally gave in and got ill, which ruined going to a baseball game, but it would have been standing room only anyways, so no big loss.
Friday I remained ill, which foiled plans for Red, White, and Boom. Again, not a huge loss. We ended up seeing the fireworks anyway from the highway.

Then my Hell Week at work. Working 8a to 8p Monday through Friday, and the ACM was on vacation. That was terror. but I made it through.
Saturday I recooperated, and Sunday Cathryn and I went on another canoe trip with Scott and some of his work buddies. We had a canoe to ourselves, and had a great time with some beautiful scenery. Oh, and we were constantly drenched by Scott and his PADDLE of DOOOOOM.

Now I'm here, at work, on a Tuesday. A regular work week with regular hours. Dante just gave me a metric tonne of Heroclix for Cathryn to play with. She'll be super excited tonight.

I've completed one of my goals and am now officially less than 200 lbs. (195 this morning). I've lost 55 lbs since February, and I feel great. I haven't bought new clothes yet, but it's in the works once summer is over. I'm nearly down to a 36 waist and could probably comfortably fit in a size Large Tshirt. In February, I was squeezing into a 42 waist and my shirt size was 2XL. I've come a long way. It's hard for me to remember where I was, except for when I put on pants that used to be tight and find that now if I don't wear a belt with them, they literally fall right off me. I'm still not done, though. I've got about 25 to 35 more pounds to lose before I'm finished losing, but in my mind, the hard part is done. I've conditioned myself to eating properly, and I know that I CAN lose weight, and it's not difficult to do.

So, how's your day?

June 27th, 2009

Dispatch review

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I'm not mentioned specifically, but they do mention my portion of the program, and refers to 'many talented soloists'.

It's a fair and balanced review, and I'll take it as a win.

Read for yourself!

CGMC on the news!

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I was on the news!!!!!!!!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wuIO2JIZ3V8


Also, here's a teaser for the show... I'm in there about 5 times. The editor must love me. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F-cNVt3dys0&NR=1



The show tonight was just awesome. My solo went over well, and the audience just amplified and energized our performance. There were mistakes, but there was SO MUCH that went right, you didn't notice.
Greg, Meagan, Marc and Cathryn loved the show. Scott and Bion seemed to enjoy it, as well. I bought them tickets because I wanted them to see it. I knew they'd have a good time.
I'm excited about the show tomorrow. The lasst show of the season. I'm not sad about it, and with tonight's performance doing so well, I'm not nervous or stressed. It's gonna be great.

Night folks!
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